Day #37 – Who Is Your Muse?

Definition of Muse? 
The definition of “muse” is to consider something thoughtfully a muse is a person or personified force who is the source of inspiration for a creative artist.

Who & Or What Is My Muse?
This is an easy question for me to answer, my answer to who is my muse is Robin Williams.

Robin Williams appeared in many tv shows/movies that not only gave me an escape from moments in my childhood and adulthood that had me a little down that brought me through to happier places where through true talent driven by genuineness in his humour he brought forward a mental inducement of a feel-good nature.

Mork & Mindy
As a child, I watched Mork & Mindy – an egg landing alien who landed on earth taking human traditions to a whole new level on the learning steaks… Mork had an eccentric personality and a very funny way of seeing himself in a human world. Mork was amusing purely because he played a very naïve role, and was ok with taking pot shots and pokes at himself.

“His naïve humour was the very ingredient that offered up a humorous pill that was a guaranteed laughing prescription.”

Robin Williams gave me many fond memories throughout his acting life and the many great works of art that he offered up in his acting career.

Dead Poets Society

Through the movie “Dead Poets Society  as a child I thought that Dead Poets Society was a movie about poetry and poets” I learned throughout the movie Dead Poets Society the importance of pedagogy in affluent schools throughout the world.

keatingMeaning of pedagogy – Pedagogy is the discipline that deals with the theory and practice of teaching and how these influence student learning. Pedagogy informs teacher actions, judgments, and teaching strategies by taking into consideration theories of learning, understandings of students and their needs, and the backgrounds and interests of individual students. Pedagogy includes how the teacher interacts with students and the social and intellectual environment the teacher.

The school setting was Welton Academy an academy that was built on student excellence the “four pillars.” “Wilton worked on the premise that the key to success rests on the following four pillars – Tradition, Honour, Discipline, and Excellence.

Wilton was set in rural Vermont in an all-male institution deliberately cut off from the economic and social life of contemporary America.

Students were typically in the age group of sixteen where they all groaned under the academic workload and many of them feel oppressed by a system that hands out demerits for the slightest infractions of discipline.

Mr Keating frequently reminds them to think for themselves, and not just to accept passively what teachers or textbooks try to tell them.

Telling them through one of his classes that “when you think that you know something that you must see it from s different view, showing his class this perspective from the top of his desk, getting them to see their class at a different height and a different view. Mr Keating teaches his class to reach for their own voice and self acceptance over them being a slave to their academic and families explanations of who they should be and become.”

Dead Poets Society is all about pushing the envelope in proving who is a conformist and who is an individual… giving the students the right to choose who they want to be regardless of social, academic and family standards. Giving them the choice to be who they are.

For me, Dead Poets Society gave me the belief in myself that I could step out of my norms and be the person that I knew I was deep within myself.

Letting go of the expectations that were put forward and help out of reach of my very own temptations.

When I was struggling to find me through my poetry and my own writing abilities I learned that those people who chose to laugh and point fingers at me… pushing me into conformity of the written word and the disciplines that they brought forward I learned deskkeatingthat the discomforts that I layered deep into my soul were simply the insecurities of being different and thinking differently to the norms of those and the expectations of those around me.

I haven’t always been freely open to “ carpe diem – seizing the day “ I learned that sitting on my butt and altering my own inner morals for the greater good of others is the very level of conformity that I didn’t want to follow.

I never wanted to be seen any other way but for who I was… but at the same time I never wanted to stand out and be so different from others that I would be seen as being an unwilling participant of what is socially acceptable. I wanted to be me but to be free to write and believe what was deeply volcano-ing within me, but I didn’t want to be known as rule breaker or troubled soul… I just wanted to be me.

Dead Poets Society gave me self-acceptance & the ok for me explore who I wanted to be not completely devoid of what was expected of me… but at the same time giving me, myself permission to form and accept my very own norms.

Dead Poets Society has shown me my own walking style that hasn’t at all times made others around me happy… but I openly accept my path and thank Robin Williams & Dead Poets Society for the self-made a path that I have given myself the ok to walk.

Mr Keating believed that the idea of education was to think for yourself, I feel that this is also my standpoint and since we never stop learning in our journey of life I feel that in order for me to learn and give myself the self-written journey of my own education that I must stand in the same belief.

” My Life’s Path Is My Own Unwritten Version Of Myself… I Am To Be The Writer Of My Own Poetic Verse… & My Own Me In My Path To “ Carpe Diem – Seizing The Day. “

I see now that I can be the very dutiful daughter, wife, mother and friend that I am whilst drawing my own blueprint for my own life and it’s future.

Good Morning Vietnam

In Good Morning Vietnam Robin Williams played the role of disc jockey Adrian Cronauer (Saigon)… the story was set in the wartime of the Vietnam War of 1965…

What stands out for me in Robin Williams’s performance is his once uncanny ability to seek individualism in both his characters that he plays and in his representations of who he personally is.

Once again Robin Williams plays a character who strives to bring forth his individuality and rights for freedom of speech and the self-regarded belief the soldiers of the Vietnam War deserved truth and transparency in their fight for their country’s freedom. As disk jockey Adrian Cronauer insists upon telling his listeners the truth instead of the official government line, being replaced by a disk jockey who is both unfunny and isn’t well liked by his listeners.

As he was taken from war-torn Vietnam and away from the woman of whom he fought to see and love and given his leave to return back to his homeland he again sets aside what norms and regulations that were put forward for him… he hand over a recorded farewell message that is entrusted and played over the airways by his own friend who he entrusted to get his message across.

Robin Williams gives at all time his individuality in all his films that he acts in.

I am going to tell you now of my greatest sorrow of Robin Williams on August 11, 2014, Williams died by suicide at his home in Paradise City in California.

It was written in his Diagnosis of death that he had “therapeutic” levels of prescription drugs present in his body. He had also been misdiagnosed with having Parkinson’s disease but through his autopsy it was shown that he was, in fact, a victim of “the terrorist” – Lewy Body Dementia – (Lewy Body Dementia is where Protein deposits, called Lewy bodies, develop in nerve cells in the brain regions involved in thinking, memory and movement (motor control). Lewy body disease is caused by the degeneration and death of nerve cells in the brain). It was also stated that Robin Williams was
suffering “a recent increase in paranoia.”

David Itzkoff wrote the following about Robin Williams – Although he did not know he had the condition, he was keenly aware of his memory problems, and distressed to find he could not remember his lines while filming 2014’s. Robin would have hated living a life of a man who couldn’t follow what was asked of him…

keating2I personally think his despair may just have taken over when he realised that improvisation was no longer part of the easy come and easy go personalities of his acting career. He may have been a great improviser of his working script but when he was no longer able to improvise or follow his script he became depressed and lost in his inner emotional turmoil, he must have felt that his life, his career and the personalities that became the segment’s of who he was throughout his life had run its & their course.

I so very saddened by the news of Robin Williams’s death…I was so excited when I heard that he was going to take on the role of the main protagonist in the filming of “First Person Plural- My Life As A Multiple- By Cameron West – A true story about a man who has been diagnosed and is now living with 24 multiple personalities.

I was so shocked to hear that Robin Williams’s had taken himself and his many versions of himself and the storylines that he portrayed himself in to the ends of their lives. I honestly couldn’t believe how a great man could live his life and the many roles that he played throughout his life in such an uplifting definite attempt of putting humour, truth and honesty into all that he did only to take his own life and selfishly end it as if it didn’t matter to anyone.

I remember how angry I was, and how let down I felt when I heard the News that “Robin Williams was dead from suicide”… I was so angry and torn in my own disbelief… the man who gave me my individuality and the right for me to “Carpe Diem – Seize The Day” was dead that he took his own life, taking his own way out….

I sat for a while and let the news sink in… the news of Robin William’s death came around the same time that I received my news and diagnosis of Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis… I stopped the disbelief and my anguish and I knew immediately that Robin Williams didn’t commit suicide that he chose to “seize the day” and not let “the terrorist – Lewy Body Dementia” take away from him and his adoring fans the incredible gift of truth, honesty and conviction in all that he put acting gift too.

Robin Williams if I could honour you today I would stand on my desk and shout “Captain My Captain” applauding you until I can no longer see you walk the stair to heaven… but instead I write these words to you… “you lived your acting career out playing and portraying the characters that gave the legacy of truth and honesty… standing tall to the right for each of us to stand for our own selves, finding our own voices, being a slave to no one & to no lie debilitating illness.”

You died with the most horrendous label that one could be given when a person chooses to end their own life… Suicide should be a dirty word, or a death terms that means you gave up and threw in the towel… I wish so deeply that your records show that you chose to live your life your way, that you died empowering individuality to the human race and that you chose to not have “the terrorist” take away your thinking, memory and movement that made you and your many roles the very individual characteristics that made you.

A great man was lost on August 11, 2014, may “the terrorist” – forever endure the loss of the greatest man who ever lived.


In The Movie – Dead Poets Society, Robin Williams as John Keating made the following quote – “No Matter What Anyone Tells You, Words And Idea’s Can Change The World.”

I do very much believe that Robin Williams is spot on with his above quote. When writing something on paper, in an article, in a letter or online social forums the words have a way of touching the inner depths of its readers.

Staying true & authentic to our inner beliefs, thoughts or feeling is what makes us as writers be open to ourselves and in being so we are able to be seen as truth bearers of our written word.

I do strongly believe that words have the power and the influence to change the outcomes of many a written words. The written word can serve to show the true intentions of someone’s heart just as it can serve to be the breaker of friendships & marriages. So, we have to be careful to make sure that we are not allowing the written word to influence us unduly.

For the reader, the written word that is written does not make it ‘the truth’, but nor can we assume that it isn’t true either – these things need to be weighed up carefully, with neither undue reverence, nor undue cynicism. As in so many things, it is a matter of balance.

For the writer, respecting oneself should be a writers first priority, writing down something and later regretting can very easily become a moment in time they may never have the ability to be taken back or even be unsaid.

Written words are forever, they can bring on the happiest of moments and they can bring on moment that can and will and do adversely affect the people who the written words are written about or inured to. Unlike the spoken word; written words come with proof and the debris of the knife delivering words & wounds.

So when Robin Williams spoke the words “No Matter What Anyone Tells You, Words And Idea’s Can Change The World.” he was indeed speaking words that everyone should hear for we as readers have no real true idea of what the writer’s meaning and intention was in the deliverance of the written words, that may or may not have been meant for the eyes that comes across the reading on the page and as for the writer; they themselves can not control how a person interprets or chooses to deal with the written word.

Robin Williams was a many of many talents who I believe through his death had many people writing about him in the negative. On the upside he would have been in awe with the many people that he has touched through his life’s work as an acting artist… I do feel that Robin was saying to his viewing and reading public ” don’t write down anything that you will later regret, but leave nothing that is so meaningful unsaid…

Robin Williams himself once said and it has  been recorded for the history book to forever repeat “He Felt He Could No Longer Be Funny, Says Robin Williams Biographer” – I believe Robin Williams knew who he was and I believe that he knew that he had a great following that served to be both a role model to his followers and a manuscript of how an actor should be in the company of his peers… but I feel his pain when his spoken  words “He Felt He Could No Longer Be Funny” come to my screen… Robin Williams was funnier than any man on this earth, but he was also an actor that was able to play a serious role and bring a story to life through his chivalry is (polite , kind , and unselfish, truthful and convictional behaviours & mannerisms).

I have belief that in Robin Williams spoken words in Dead Poets Society  when he sais “We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life” that he meant we through poetry we learn to read the history lessons of human kind, learning along the traits and way of the people who blazed the trails before us.

I hope and believe that Robin Williams was speaking from an unknown depth of some part of his subconscious the lessons that he was acting out in his movies. I think that Robin Williams saved many a people from the depths of their own despair, proving that humour was the true medicine to the illnesses that life throws out like candy.

Robin Williams said in the movie “Dead Poets Society” the following line when saying to the principal of Welton that didn’t think of him a cynic the following line – “But only in their dreams can man be truly free. ‘Twas always thus, and always thus will be.” I do so hope with all my being that Robin Williams is no free of the illness that he was unaware that he was suffering from, I hope that his memory serves him the book of life that shows him the many unscripted lives that he has touched across the word. Hopefully through death Robin Williams is truly free.

Some Of my favourite quotes in Dead Poets Society were:
– “When you read, don’t just consider what the author thinks. Consider what you think.”

– “To quote from Whitman, ‘O me! O life! … of the questions of these recurring of the endless trains of the faithless … of cities filled with the foolish what good amid these, O me, O life?’ Answer: that you are here. That life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse.”

“I always thought the idea of education was to learn to think for yourself.”

– “Now we all have a great need for acceptance, but you must trust that your beliefs are unique, your own, even though others may think them odd or unpopular, even though the herd may go ‘That’s bad.’ Robert Frost said, ‘Two roads diverged in the wood and I, I took the one less travelled by, and that has made all the difference’.”

– “Carpe diem. Seize the day, boys. Make your lives extraordinary.”

Robin Williams was indeed a man full of breathtaking idealism and artistic expression, the Captain could inspire anyone to live his or her dream. Robin Williams was the man who acted out the scenes in his scripts but it was very obvious to see that Robin Williams was not the characterised person scripted in manuscripts – he oozed grace, empathy, a creed for self-awareness and self change, he was inspirational and his characters stories a life of their own – giving to his viewing public a man who acted out humour and a kick ass attitude to the many hindrances in the life of other people’s lives.

mrkeatingRobin Williams inspired me through “Dead Poets Society” to make up my own mind who it is that I wanted to be… forcing me to own my thoughts & putting out my hands in front of me to work hard for what my dreams and life wanted for me.

He taught me that regardless of  my social, academic and family standards that indeed had a choice of who I wanted to be, giving me belief in myself that I could step out of my norms and be the person that I knew I was deep within myself. I never wanted to be a conformist and I certainly didn’t want to be an envelope pusher… but I do and have always know who I am.

Live On Robin Williams, in your dreams and through the beautiful messages forever notarised in your movies.

Author. Tanya Kelly
Copyrighted By Tanya Kelly. 2018


2 thoughts on “Day #37 – Who Is Your Muse?

  1. oh dear Lauren.. my sentiments of Robin Williams are exactly yours.
    The world lost a man who was truer than life itself.

    I believe in my heart that he didn’t take his life, I believe that he simply knew that he could no longer serve his followers with truth and conviction in his heart… if he chose to live he would no longer be acting out the stories that touched others – he knew he would become the life’s story and the that would be over shadowed by the words… “A great man and talent – oh what a shame”… he went out of this world under his own terms.. whether it be right or wrong….

    “Hearts Flaming Canvassed Flare”

    Goodbye For Now
    ‘Nanu Nanu’


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